I've been reading and rereading everyone's comments on here. I sure do appreciate that there are so many of you who are posting encouraging words to Mike and me, and that you are all praying fervently for our little Flara. I would like to have something better to say regarding your kindness, but I can think of no other words than to say I'm truly humbled and thankful for all of you, and that I love you all!
Dad and I went and visited little Flara this afternoon, and Mom and I went LATE last night! Both were very good visits. I sure do love that little girl, and I'm getting increasingly anxious to get to hold her and love on her. I'm getting anxious for her to get off of her CPAP even though I know she needs it. I'm having an antsy moment, and I'm sure there must be a correlation between my feeling discouraged and being in the midst of my doldrums. I have been constantly reminding myself of God's hand and sovereignty in her life today, and pretty much prayed over her the entire hour I visited with her this afternoon. But, today is a struggle... my reminders to myself seem to be going without being heard. I know it's not true, I know I need to cling harder, and I know that it's when I'm weakest that upon God I am most dependent.
So, I'm reading 2 Corinthians 12: 9,10 to remind me of what our Father says about this:
"(9) But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. (10) For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
Suzanne, You don't need to say thank you for all the prayers and such that friends and loved ones are saying. You, Mike and Noel doing what you are doing to bring Flara up in this world is thanks enough. You guys are going a great job and this blog site is a blessing. Get there to see your little girl as much as possible. Housework will wait for you, your little girl loves seeing her family. Daryl
ReplyDeleteSuzanne, your strength amazes me. I cannot imagine what an emotional wreck I would be if God had placed me in your shoes. You have an amazing Father in Heaven to lean on for support. I admire your faith in these tough and trying times. I believe that God is using Flara's story to reach out to people, like myself, whom are learning the depths of loving and serving God unconditionally from your story. Whenever I get discouraged, and my thoughts reflect that, I repeat this verse to myself:
ReplyDelete"Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer."
PSALM 19:14
It is important for me to remind myself that my thoughts and my self talk also need to be acceptable to God.
I hope you know what a blessing it has been to be able to read your blog. We are praying for little Flara, and for you, Mike and Noel. We love you all so much.
love,
Nicole R.
Suzanne, you guys are in my prayers and this post and the previous one hit home with me. Right now I'm in a bible study at church and we're doing Priscilla Shirer's "One in a Million". The premise of the study is that out of the 2 million Jews that left Egypt only 2 got to see the promised land. Sometimes God shows us the wilderness so that we can learn more to rely solely on Him. <3
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you set up the blog. It's been great to read about how strong Flara is! Can't wait to read about her getting to come home!! :)